Star Of Love

A NEW =)

2010-06-30T22:58:00.000-07:00

i love you very much my syg! =)
DippyDippy ........

somethings are meant to be spoken.

2010-03-29T05:59:00.000-07:00

hmm...its been months since i last update blog..right?
nvm..no one read my blog anyway..alamak...wat i do again
nw..she has officially leave me..leaving me hurt and sad..
i blame myself..she said'i rase u tk lame lg dpt pegganti i'
those are the 'things' i was so..broken into teaars in my heart
i've been trying to care n help her..scared of losing her..n she said tat
nvm...i hope allah help me..wateva the solution is..i'll accept it.
but 1 ting i ask..pls give her happiness n avoid her from bad things..

selalusentiasakekalsetia
19/19/09 (L)

a hope of change

2010-02-13T05:33:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum to all readers out there...kepada muslimin yg dikasih allah..

bertaqwa kpd allah dgn sebenar2 taqwa...dari sini i learn slowly wat islam is..

hmm...things has been messy..jealousy..i knw..its natural..but..i trust my syg..

but at times when im in bad..dont put fire on fire..it will just get worst..sigh~~

i love her...at same time..i love allah..creator of the universe...islam is wide..

slowly i will discover abt it..to u syg..ily..remember 19/12 n 9/9 ok?

a new leaf

2010-01-22T17:29:00.000-08:00

yaaawwwwnnnnnsss~~~ so tiring and sleepy..its been months since i update my 'diary'
so...alot of things has happened...time and ppl changes..but still..1 thing did not change..wanna know?hah..okok..my love towards DDD..i admit..these month..january.we've been in arguing..quarreling with each other.she wanted to leave me..but no way..hold a minute sister..you're mine..i need you in life..!without you..i cant leave..you are my oxygen..heart..lungs and everything..syg..u tau i syg u..pls..dun tink of leaving me or me finding other gals..u knw we nid each other 4 sure...im happy with u...n ur safe with me..just like princess and the beast.eh...cam cartoon lak..alamak...nk kene gi pasar beli ikan...ayam dan telors..so..arioz
tc~
selalusentiasakekalsetia 19/12/09 (L)

new journey

2009-11-24T20:03:00.000-08:00

well...1yr 2months 16days has passed..nw..my new journey begins..
hmm..i dun expect this to happen..nw i knw she dun accept me for who i am..
i wish i cn cry..my heart has broken to million of pieces..only she cn fixed it back
got to find out she has an 'affair' with some1..hw sad shud i be??anyone knws?well
no1 reading..so..i write to myself..jht2 i pn..i still love her..love her so much!! i knw she helped me..endure my nonsense...i think it's time she live her life with some1 else...what else i have in this world?half of my life has gone..when the other half going to end?soon?perhaps..
19/12/09 9/9/09 are loved.. (L)

true love

2009-11-06T02:07:00.000-08:00

hmm..today went out with her...i admit..the 1st half day was a hard day..i dun blame her for this..i knw its my fault...sigh...but..i see..no one seems understand hw i feel..she told me..she has been giving us chances...hmm...i blame myself..yes..i did say i am changing..but..she dun believe me..no one did nor no one will...hmm...my life seems to get harder n harder each other...sigh...she has leave me for good...nw..i nid to do wat best for me...i'm sure..1 day..sooner or later she will find better than me...hmm...when i was in the bus..sleeping,so tired..i laid on her for quite a while..then..when the bus turned....i felt something hold me..when i woke up..i found the bus didnt turn..i thought it was just a dream.but when i asked her...she did say she hold me..preventing me from falling down..sigh~
1 day...when i fall..i'm sure..i wunt stand up again....only time will tell....
ilysm dear...DDD

GO ON

2009-10-08T02:18:00.000-07:00

haix..yesterday slept for 3 hours..cant help it..i kept thinking of my syg..i miss her n worry about her
i didnt eat well..no mood to eat...every problem that happened...causes by me...what should i do..i dont want her to leave me..never..i will never leave her...i love her so much..she sacrifice so much for me..why cant i do the same thing for her?

something is bad

2009-10-07T06:07:00.000-07:00

well..today turned out bad..well actually..quite bad...
idk what i've done..but really..i dont mean it..hw would u
feel if you wunt be able to mit some1 you love n she/he asked
you to go home..you will be sad,right?well..she asked me to leave
her.i cant..i love her so much..only she will remain in my heart
till my last breath..

i'm a loser

2009-10-06T03:00:00.001-07:00

well..supposely i thought today is a happy day but instead in turn out
the other way around..she got back..told me things..i realise i've hurt her
but i didnt know what is it..burok2 org..tau baik dh nk ubah..haix..in pain
i cant do nothing..well.life has to go on..ily DDD

^_^

2009-10-03T00:19:00.000-07:00

hey..dh lame tk update kn..so..wanna update..
everything fine..so..i STILL n ALWAYS love HER ok!!
well..who cares..i do..hahaha!!it's nw or never rite..yeaY!!
ILY DEAR!!

9/9/2009

2009-09-08T20:35:00.000-07:00

well..today 9/9/2009 11.40am
am writing about my past..so what happened?alot of things..obstacles and whatsoever..got to knw she finally on the move with some1 else...today suppose to be our 1 year anniversary..but turn out disappointing..sigh..hmm..hope she really loves him than me..hmm..all the memories we had..i shall treasured in deep in my heart..i really didnt expect this to happen..it's nt your fault i turn out this way..but to let you knw..i'll still and always love you...(dippydippydoo)

i'm back

2009-09-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

well..hw come i'm still alive?haizh...still..she n him..me?left out..i wish she knw hw much i love her..well..many things happen..family n so on...sigh..

2009-06-11T20:28:00.000-07:00

hey....it's been quite a while tk blog kn(talking to myself)
yesterday went out to watch night at museum 2 with her
super fun n funny!!!i laugh till my ass jumped..wkakakak
then i sent her back home..suddenly she cried!ouh2..gosh..
what happened??i started to get panic..:(
sori cnt continue..to sad to write about it..
the only thing i know...i love her so much!

2009-06-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

hmm..well..nthg much to say huh..
so..earlier paper was quite tough..i had study n had given my best shot...
hopefully i pass..currently chatting with her...still..she loves him even
she said she hate him...i feel her love to him is strong..i'm useless am i..
YES!!i am..sigh..i wish she cn love me..but wunt happen..i guess i got 1 month
left...hmm..guess she dun nid me..

2009-05-31T20:41:00.001-07:00

today..i find out..my love...said she hates him but today..nw..said to me she still loves him.
goshh..hw lng i cn kip this up..1 month left...hope i cn survive....i'm sure she cn
i still loves u even though..u dun feel the same way towards me....

2009-05-22T01:42:00.000-07:00

hey..hi everyone...what a sunny day..
i had a bad day..i manage to met her n spent time with me..
when i hold her.my hands are shivering....idk why....after that...i regain bck my strength
hmm..i accompany her go to bugis mit her lover.from what i've seen..she seems so happy..
i'm happy for her...hmm..she also ask me to sent regards to JTB...hmm...after i saw her n him
my hands n body starts to shiver..hmm..but this time...i cnt cntrl it...my heart ache.crying with
pain..thinking of her..then i went back home.taking bus 851..haix..it reminds me of 1912... :(
if only she knows how much she meant to me..n how much i love her...it wunt end this way...my last moment...ily ddd

2009-05-19T23:28:00.000-07:00

so tired!!!freaking damn tired!!
well..what actuallly happened was..i met my love..we have fun..chatting n giggling..
then..i hold her hands n she said..this is only for him..i let her hand go n sat down n
thinking what is going to happen next...i saw her leaving . thought she was going to
walk around..out of a sudden i stood n look after her..i chasing around the area for 10 mins.
i asked the people around if they got saw her...no answer found..i was going to faint
until i realise she already reached home..i was so sad that she left me behing without saying
any words

2009-05-19T00:59:00.000-07:00

hmm..tired..maths pe susah kebabai..
no!!syg..pls dun mit him..i dun want to share love with him
just as we share ours....pls..come back before it's too late
ily..tc baby...be happy...~

2009-05-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

hmm..just came back from religious class...
tafsir bapak susah!!!!hmph!!
Quran dpt highest marks la sey!!!chey!!
BAEK pe?hahha...currently chatting with my ex..still i love her..
Hoping 1 day we will reunite..ily ddd

2009-05-15T06:09:00.000-07:00

hey.!!
now..let me sey..exactly 9.10pm hahahah
hmm..i feel lonely..without her around..i'm nothing..i'm dying.
but she did nothing..she dont care for me..hopefully she happy with him..haix..
wat a day...parents nt home yet so..gt no1 to tok too...
tc syg.hope god bless n tc of u

2009-05-15T00:22:00.000-07:00

well..i'm here again but ths time..i'm searching for my lost love..i lost her once n i lost her again..it feels gd to love her n being love..but..her love is for some1 else..knowing me this i'm sad n happy..sad cos i've lost her n happy some1 new will make her happy..for me..i wunt find a new gerls..

2009-05-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

hey..
i just came back from mosque..so thirsty n tired
hmm..eep test??quite hard!!my life..
my real life starts on 9/9/2008 and tat where i now abot love..
i love her so much..i know love cnt be forced but i hope 1 day i
cn be reunited with her..for now..i pray she is safe,easy..n happy